Thursday, January 24, 2013

You make my day

My house added a very lovable sound recently, nine months of baby. 
She is not my younger sister, because my mother said that we four brothers
and sisters were enough troublesome for her all the time.
Besides my elder brother, his relationship is still in unmarried status.
Although I hope that she is my niece, but unfortunately she is not.

Obviously, I don't like to take care of kid.
I don't like them, especially just nine months of baby.
If it must be a reason, I would like to say that kid sometimes such a burden.
Especially baby's crying just sounds like making noise for me.
But my mother likes child very much. So what to do?
She even complained that she have nothing to do while staying at home alone.
Therefore my mother keeps on asking for job like taking care of baby.
Finally she has found one, and it is helping friend to take care of her baby.
It maybe is just for temporary?  months? or years? We don't know.

The moment when mother told me that she decided to take care of the kid.
I was like slapping to my faces, and I hope it is not real at all.
Since I start to think, will meets you are the start of my nightmare?
And I start to think, will you become my alarm clock for everyday?
I don't need a clock in the early morning, be honest.
I able to woke up by myself in time. Trust me.
I have no idea how is my life if keep on going like that by days.
Oh my nightmare, you are my nightmare.

With the growth of age, I realized that our family's sounds are getting fewer and fewer.
Because one is preparing to go abroad for taking degree at UK,
two is taking diploma and degree for few years,
and one is staying outside areas for few months.
No wonder mother said that our house becomes more peaceful.
And it actually proved that we grew up, we have our own life now.
And maybe we four brothers and sisters will be separated in one day?
Or maybe each of us is going to accomplish our own dreams? Who knows?

Nightmare? NO, you are not obviously. You recall me of my childhood.
I like to act like crying just hoping for someone cares. She did so.
I like to smile just because I knew there is something to eat.
Eating is quite a happy moment for child. I know everyone does.
When she is crying, I do anything in order just to make her smile.
My mood turns good instantaneously, because loves to sees her smiling face.

You recall me of my childhood.
You make me want to return to be a child.
Every day you make my day.



This photo is capture by me. 


Thursday, January 17, 2013

I believe

My younger brother, eighteen years old this year. 
Unfortunately he was selected by first batch list of PLKN camps. 
He goes far away to Sabah, today is the third weeks.
I still remember we have a sleepless night on the day before he left us. 
We whole family members sent him to the place of gathering. 
The most unforgettable moment is when we seeing off until the bus engine starts.
Until the bus starts moving on, only we realized we should go home.
It was my first time has such farewell experience. I really meant it.
He leaves us with happily, therefore we should let him to remember our smiling face,
but not
 with tears.

Yet I did not have chance to talk to him through telephone tills today. 
But I received his message and from the messages I knew that he is fine.
He called us not to worry about him and he met new friends at there.
Not to worry about him? It is impossible. Why I said so? 

He is the youngest at home. 

Therefore naturally he grows under everybody's protects.
It was the first time he leaves the home for three months.
A new life without computer, without games, without out going. 
He force to wake up early everyday, and the time before sun raised. 
So don't say just stay there for three months.
How he going to passing a day, I really have no idea about it.
I just cant imagine how if my life without computer, without facebook.

He needs only adapt to his new life.

but we actually have to be used to three months without him.
A real story and it occurs on my father, but I called it as heart warming experience.
Everyday before my father going to his bed room, he used to be enter to our room.
The night my father open the door and step to his room.
The moment only my father discovered that he is staying far away from us.
Father just smiled and share what he go through just now with us.
And my mother also smiled on the silly father.

Yes, I do really miss you so much. And so we do.
I believe that three months will pass quickly.

I believe he able to take care himself well like what he promised us. 
Because I believe he can do it.
I believe.